People forget my importance to them. I give. A lot. Either people forget my importance in their lives or they forget to appreciate me. I’ll love you as much as I can just don’t forget to love me back.
I really want to go somewhere beautiful. Just drive somewhere I’ve never been and get away for for a while. Anyone? Also, I’m broke.
I am really happy they handled everything the way they did. It’s a good thing. Are you still thinking about what we talked about? It’s definitely not impossible. That day was such a great day. <3
What am I doing. I’m actually kind of scared. Its about my art. I really want to talk to ^you about it but I haven’t gotten a chance. Every time I bring it up it tears me apart. It’s the worst thing I’ve felt. I feel so empty.
I thought I was getting really close to one of my friends but she’s going through her own stuff and really cannot seem to fit me in for one hour in her week. She really doesn’t mean to but she forgets about me. There was another girl I could have helped the other day and in sequence became friends with her but I was selfish and couldn’t afford to drive out to her and now I’m kicking myself because friends. It was an opportunity I should’ve taken. At least I have Lucas and Jake. But I’d really like a bestfriend. I care so much about people. Loyalty is a specialty of mine. Why don’t I have a girlfriend?
I keep thinking about moving out and all that (which is totally not possible right now) but realized it really isn’t worth a dime until I transfer to a university. Going to crafton ten minutes from my parents house, why move out? And considering I want to transfer to LB, Berkeley, or wherever, that’s when I should save to move. No dorms for me, I guess. So there’s a gun to my head. Just thinking about it sounds nice though.
School is going really good since I realized studying will save me.
So, thats that for now. It feels better writing it all out.
I really can’t wait to see you. I’m wondering if you’re excited?
On my way home, at a stoplight, a butterfly flew into my car. For the second time. In two days.
Haven’t been on the desktop version of tumblr in a while so obviously I took the time to go look at everyone’s blog backgrounds. I actually forgot what mine was until I checked and then I fell in love with it again and left it.
So much to do.
Finish applying to all the stores in the citrus plaza. Not even kidding. Someone has to hire me by that point.
Drop off my application for Aaron Brothers. Dream first job.
Start on the poster designs for the Crafton Dance show. It’s due Tuesday.
Finish the painting I started a few weeks ago.
I actually really want to try this photoshoot and possibly have you help me. Come to meee.
Call my doctor and make an appointment.
Study for a midterm on Monday.
And I still really want to take a ballet class.
I need to order my halloween costume. Still.
You stalk me cause you love me and you like my thoughts. Hey love. ;)
I really wish I could afford to take those ballet classes I’ve been wanting to take for a year now. But I can barely afford gas soo…